Time to say goodbye...

I am about to lose the most inspirational woman in my life and it hurts so so much but at least she will be with Grandpa <3 Doesn't make the grief and loss any easier. That strong independent woman lived in time of war, hiding in bomb shelters, through some amazing despair and fear, and came to Australia to live and bring up a beautiful family and thoroughly enjoy life.So many happy memories ingrained in me from being with my Grandparents as kids/teenagers/adults. I will always be grateful for the woman who judged no-one. Beth Page is an angel on earth. My grandpa died 13 years ago. On this day he had a stroke 17/7/2012 and he died 5 days later on 23/7/2012. Grandma is in hospital fighting for her life, or maybe more like letting her life go. She is being heavily medicated and is basically being left to die in a hospital bed because her body is shutting down. Time to say goodbye. Most beautiful, caring and giving soul I've ever met. My grandma judged noone. At times Im sure she wondered who the hell I was with my piercings and coloured hair, but she never judged me, she just saw me as her grandaughter and gave me unconditional love. I appreciated that. I always knew I was safe with my grandma. I remember times of going to Grandmas house when my little brother was 1 or 2 years old and playing the piano, times of coming over after school and spending time with grandpa and grandma, and grandma would make us sandwiches, with either apricot jam, honey or nutella and it was always topped off with a drink of FRUITA. I loved going to grandmas, I always knew I was safe there. Grandma and Grandpa would have done absolutely anything for us and for that I could never thank them enough. Of everything that I am thankful for is hearing my Grandmas story, her determination, her strength, stubbornness, independent nature so that I can be just as motivated to try to be half as brave as she was. I have experienced many things in my life and I know that Grandma is with Grandpa and that's a nice knowing.

Society is exhausting..

Everyday I live in this world and are apart of this society I am feeling the need to withdraw for a while to collect my core thoughts and energy as I do feel at the moment my sensitive aura is being jabbed with some intense darkness, which could cause issues if I let it and lower my vibration.....not going to let this happen! Time to hermit for a while.