End of 2012 rant

The end of the year is always a reflection for me of where I've been and how much I've changed. Well we've changed (Quiet Kane and I). From our lives 4 years ago before we had met, we were both in dire circumstances. Slowly we have built for ourselves a happy existence and somewhere we are excited to continue a bright future. I always get sad around this time too because due to the still raw tragic loss of Bethany and Georg in 2010 and 2011....and it never leaves us. I always especially miss Bethany at Christmas/NY/Australia Day because I know she'd be hanging out for crazy hangs, alas she is not here. But after such traumatic circumstances we have learnt how to create our own selves and our own lives, so we are able to move on and be happy for the lives we have ahead of us. It took a while, but we are finally building our future. So now we move on with our lives again and what better way then to reflect and see how we have grown from those si tuations and are able to realise our own potentials. It has been the hardest 8 months of our lives. After being together for 3 and a half years, choosing for Kane to move interstate was something I could not hold him back from, and of course I had to finish my year of uni in SA but it has been one of the most emotional and mentally draining experiences. HOWEVER we are NOW on the homestretch!!! Finding a house to live in together finally so we can celebrate our 2012 Christmas and 4 years together and finally settle down in Melbourne. I have a hopeful transfer to Victoria University and I will hope to find some work once we are settled in. After the roller coaster we have been living since we met it is honestly amazing we were able to keep it all together, but we have and I am very proud of us for that! Being back in Melbourne after 4-5 weeks of not being to see him has made me just be so damn thankful for the person I get to spend the rest of my life with. After everything we've both been through in our lives, we are determined and motivated to continually create and challenge each other, without that we will stay stagnant and no change will occur. Life can be tough but if we stick at it with positive values and thoughts, we really can mould our own future ♥ A huge thankyou to anyone who has been there to send me love during this time, comfort me, let me vent to them, your listening ears have been a value to my staying sane. Anyone who has done the same for Kane I know he is thankful for it too, he is also thankful for those who looked after me, because there's no denying it, I was lost without him. But individually we have grounded ourselves and we look forward to coming together again and basically starting our life in Melbourne :) Bring on 2013 :)