Who's drowning? If you are read this:

Do you often feel like you're drowning?
Drowning in self loathe?
Self hate?
You honestly hate yourself so much you don't even know why anyone wastes their time with you?
But tomorrow you feel happy, joyful, glad to be alive.
The next day, is different again, a more sombre mood and inability to leave the house.
and then the cycle begins again....

If this is how you feel, you have some issues you need to talk about.
When we have an issue held inside, without communicating it, we feel like it's overriding any ability to be happy and get past the issue.
Once the issue is released, the pressure subsides and the happiness prevails.

Changes...

Either it be weight, diet habit, organisational habit, personality change or quitting a habit.
This is always a hard step to make, always.
But it's always important to remember, it is worth it.

There is nothing you can do that will dissapoint anyone but yourself.
It is your choice is you follow through with the change, or relapse.
If you do relapse you are not a bad person and you should not beat yourself up about it.

I have come to realise that my alcoholism caused most of my mental and physical problems and now it is just upto me to make the choices from here.

I can lose weight, I can quit smoking, I can live a happy and healthy life.

I can believe in myself.
I can be satisfied.
I can love myself.

Loving one self is the most important part of it all.
If you can't love yourself, how do you attract a person who will love you for what you want?

You won't.

Attraction comes with how you feel about yourself.
Love thyself and be satisfied you are doing your best.

#1 Wake up every morning and be happy you are alive.
#2 Make the choice of change.
#3 Know that it is not hard to make the change, it just takes willpower and energy.
#4 It can be a hard, slow, patient process but you need to remember the end goal is most important.
#5 Fight for your own wellbeing over anyone elses. You are most important to you.
#6 Make yourself number one before you make anyone else number one (minus animals, they are always number one, says them :) )

You can do anything.
You can succeed.
You have the potential.
So get out there.
Start living!