Appreciation.

Appreciation of other half today. We both had a very rough night with little miss 10 months crawling everywhere & teething everywhere & me & little miss being massive grumps this morning. He made little miss breakfast, made me a coffee, did the dishes, put a load of bubs’ washing out & did the first leg of putting little miss down for her morning nap, then gave me a big hug and told me I’m the best Mum and ran himself a little behind schedule for work. It definitely made me 90% less stressed and now I’m mooshy and teary, but bless him. He has made my heart fuller & I needed that today. Most people can’t wait for the weekend, but his work week started today, so I’ll be patiently waiting for tuesday!
So we had a 12-3:20am crawl/grumble fest, this morning I dealt with overwhelming poos(I took her nappy off and the turd went rolling, yep and then I missed the bin in my grump and had to pick it off the kitchen floor wtf!) , a big wee all over her change table, took her in the shower with me, oh yay soapy baby is slippery, and then she played like crazy til it was nap time, which she fought but I got her down eventually. Once she wakes up we are going to a lady at playgroups house to have some delicious food and try some baby wrapping skills. Seriously. I need this today. Lily please be gentle on Mummy.

I spent many years watching my mum go through a similar torment with my dad & I said I’d never go through that. My brother was diagnosed with a brain tumor at 3 and my dad worked instead of support my mum through the surgery & rehab & I was only 1 at the time (his boss told him to take time off). To this day I don’t know how they survived their marriage, he has now grown to be the best dad, husband & poppa, but it has taken him 40 or so years to realise the damage he did by cutting off emotionally. I think thats the only reason we are so strong, is he has seen the damage that can be done if he doesn’t listen to me when I say I am literally about to CRACK! The last 10 months has really shown us we can either fall apart or fight together, I am lucky I have a fighter & he deals with me challenging him!

Once upon a time Id have cried my eyes out, having a meltdown and he’d have been going off to work with no idea I needed him to just hug me and tell me I will be okay. This morning just that hug to tell me I am the best Mum and I can get through it made my world!