Some will not be ready to make the change. The biggest change of all generations. Some will perish, from their own hand, because the challenge is too heavy. This is reality. Look within yourself, at the changes you can make and you can do anything and be who you are at the core. We are humans with layers, this is true, layers of regret, past influences, past pain, emotional baggage, but we do not have to live with this, that is a choice. Do you wonder everyday who you are? What you are at your core? You CAN find this, you really have to break the darkness away. Will you make the choice to change? Or allow it to manifest inside you? Life is all about choice. As humans we can be happy, we can feel adjusted, we just need to forgive ourselves.It is time to take hold of those things you hold close, they are not important anymore, you have held on too long. I held onto 2 deaths for 12 years, it was too long, and time to let go. They are always with us, even if they have left this physical place.
Some read this and think I am mad. They do not want to change. They want to stay in the same mindset, because it is easier to do so. I made the choice because I know in all of my being that I had to change. It was time to rid of the emotional pain and torture that I tormented myself with everyday. It was time to learn why I was feeling so dark and hateful of myself. Bullying, death, grief, family problems, relationship problems, no-one is without baggage, it is whether we choose to deal with this baggage or stay in the same realm of thought.
However, if you choose to keep the baggage, you will slowly feel physical pain, your back will hurt from carrying all the baggage and other body parts will start to deteriorate. This is natural. We cannot, as humans, carry all of this emotional pain. In saying this, it is human nature to not want to get help, to want to stay in the deep dark depths of darkness. One day you may wake up and make that change, this will often happen after a major event or breakdown, and this is the chance you've waited for.
People around you will start to think you've gone insane. They will stop hanging around you because they want to stay in their own little world without any positive influence at all. They will manipulate others into thinking you're crazy and a bad person for the changes you make. You will start to be yourself at your core, honest, happy, positive. Your morals and values will start to show and some people around you will fear this. They will speak badly because you've changed, you're not the person they once knew, and you know what? Thankfully you have changed. Your life is more wholesome, more fulfilling, more encouraging and you don't wake up every morning wishing you were dead, what a horrible person you are!
In the end, you're better off without the negative surroundings, the people who only live a reality that is a facade, their life is not real, they wake up exhausted, because they are not resting when they sleep, their bodies weep out negative energy to all they are around, they have egos which overcompensate who they are at the core, they pretend to be someone else, they run away from everything in life rather than confront anything, they are misguided by their own negative self.
Finding a sense of self is a really big deal. It will be physically demanding for months, it is something that once you realise, you can NEVER go back, because living for yourself is the most beautiful gift you've ever received, from yourself. You stand for what you believe in finally and you are not going to go back under any circumstances. You will really start to see those around you who do not service you positively anymore and this is one of the hardest things to see and feel. You will lose patience and tolerance for those who cannot see good in themselves and good in their lives, they do not appreciate what they have and this is frustrating to someone whose life had changed.
This is our reality and we can do what we want with it, you just have to make the choice, do you want to live in the dark or the light? It really is that simple.
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