The move & relationship survival

To be perfectly frank, I've been doing too much thinking lately, many thoughts that could lead to emotional nightmare, but mostly rational and intuitive thoughts that could deem me to be crazy, but I do get through it. Kane and I lived in a very old house. We constantly had issues at that house and were told many things about the house. The house did seem to be a portal to the spiritual and alien world/s and we experienced many things at that house that we have never experienced at any other residence. Kane had a few of his first "contacts" there which were his spirit guide, a big indian man with an eagle, who was guiding him. My spirit guide is my Grandpa who is nearly always around me. So....I started experiencing small things like dreams, dreams that would unlock information as this is the "best way" to get through to people, mostly my Grandpa would come into dreams when I needed him the most, or I'd dream about things in the future or have "real" dreams that you can NEVER forget that will explain something happening in my life at the time. At that house we always felt like it was a chaotic energy portal and we never felt like we could wake up properly, sleep properly or even do ANYTHING, we always felt lazy and drudged down. The backyard was weird as there was a "man" in the back shed staring at us at all times, every single room was weird at that house. It was an old house and we were even told by a spiritual friend that someone had a ritual in the back room which was the worst energetically. My new house, however is completely different, I walked into there knowing that if any energy is in there it's easily cleared by sage and honestly felt like I was free again.... We were cleaning up the old house and we found we had this nagging voice in our heads saying "You can't leave" and Kane and I both shouted, WE'RE LEAVING!!!!!! forcefully, it was INTENSE. Anyone who is spiritually inclined found the house weird, heavy and dark. The house can never be clean. This move happened because Kane FINALLY made the choice to move states where he could get work and as much as it has been emotionally demanding on us it is teaching us a WHOLE new lesson in life....well many lessons. We are very much in sync too.... But fuck I miss him!!!!!