I spent a long time in my life wondering what happens when I die.
I had panic attacks.
When I thought about it I felt physically ill.
I met Kane and he had a completely different view.
The polar opposite.
I feared everything.
FEARED EVERYTHING.
I was scared.
My Mum started to go on a spiritual journey for a while...
She went overseas to a whole lot of different countries...at the time I did not understand...
Now I do.
I've started my own Path.
It all started with a little tab called acid.
On 30 June 2011 I had some friends over my house for some drinks. One of those friends was a really good mate I've known for a long time and he gave me a tab of acid for my birthday.
I was not a big fan of LSD as I had a really bad experience on acid (dexter) when I was 19 and had lost my mind.
Now 3 months later, a very special friend would kill herself and completely change the community forever, for the better.
June 30 marked yet another birthday and presents one played the most important part - the LSD. Named "GINESH" elephant ACTUAL LSD.
Drugs really aren't my thing and something I dabbled with anymore, but I knew eventually Kane and I would have a tab each and lose our minds for 12 hrs. We actually lost the tabs at one stage as well but somehow found them in a plastic bin on the door. Very weird!
One night we made the choice to have them, our housemate was going out and it seemed like the best time. Not knowing what I'd experience I was very nervous and took half. Kane's metabolism works faster than mine so that hit his off quicker. I was still waiting and nothing kicked in so I (stupidly) took the other half.
Kane started acting all crazy, grabbing the video camera all Hunter S Thompson alike.
My mind was slowly becoming more fragile as time went by and I knew the acid was kicking in...
We soon found ourselves in the spare room leaning against the mattress and my whole entire body split like I no longer existed. I freaked out and grabbed Kane and he grabbed me and we felt like we were sinking into each other, like we were one soul, not two. Kane actually started sobbing because he found the boards of canada song that was playing was so beautiful and at that moment we were so incredibly connected.
I spent a long time doing a painting, writing a whole bunch of creative words that I felt meant what we do in life and how we live with colours.
I spent some time writing down everything that was said......Kane called tim to find out if we actually existed, tim came around.
Except in my mind Tim was an illusion and tim did not actually exist...
Tim then became a ghost and not real but then became different personalities of tim...man was I tripping out!
The next day we awoke feeling quite exhausted and like we'd fun a marathon.
TO BE CONTINUED....
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