So I've been really having a good think lately, mostly about weight loss and the emotional weight on weight loss. I know what helps lose weight as it is something I've been doing for the past 5 months. I really realised latelu though that if I don't properly deal with my emotional issues that cause severe emotional stress, then I am going to put the weight back on. All of the weight I have lost so far I really refer to as losing protection or emotional pain and not weight as that's how I see it. The more weight I lose, the more emotional issues I'm dealing with and in such a way that I am really noticing the difference in how I see the world and other people.
I'll give an example.
Recently I had severe issues with a housemate. In the past I'd have let the emotions drive me into despair and a kind of stress that created adrenalin madness and I would breakdown and never forgive them. I did go through the usual stressful emotional draining of pain from being treated badly, however I was able to forgive and understand that the actions taken against me were not malicious and were in fact done in such a way that were not purposefully impacting on me. The actions did not reflect me as a friend, however the person who was causing the actions, therefore no maliciousness was involved and I was able to pull any kind of defence I felt necessary and forgive.
This emotional issue that I was able to understand and forgive has really gained me a lot of insight into my own confidence and understanding that I let that emotional pain take me over and I DO have the choice to push it away and have the focus that the person who is causing the issue has no meaning behind it, they are just in a bad place.
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