September 2012 is for radical change

and I am at a point of my life yet again where I find myself with little 'friends' around who think about someone else other than themselves. I realised that I find it so hard to let go of things like this and people like this because I, as a cancer star sign love family and friends so much I'd do anything for them, but when they don't act the same way back I am bitterly disappointed. This past month has been massive for reflection for me and I really realised that I have often been a stepping stone for others to get to a point in their life. That's okay, but there is a time where I have to evolve and understand that I am no longer a stepping stone for negative people to get to, but positive people to get to. I can't even dislike the people who have recently let me down, because I see them unable to ascend and I see them becoming more and more confused with their life around them and their ego takes over, creating issues for them every step of the way. I understand now that they don't even know what they are doing, they are creating labels for themselves, thanks society! so they have a reason to sit around and do nothing, but these are not the kind of people I want around me anymore, I want to get out there and get everything out vocally and through community thought and development, not from facebook and other mediums. I have always had an issue with facebook, mostly because so many people use it as a forum to discuss their whole private life (with 445 friends) and wonder why they have all of these opinions flooding at them. Last night I witnessed this. It's a catch 22, the person who was doing the opinion should cut the egotistic and condescending shit, but then the person who was taking it so hard should look at things more lightly, HOWEVER, people have this forum where they CAN say what they want with no repercussions....this is not a good thing, and this past month, September has been valuable for me to move on and understand I want more than this in my life. So last night I deactivated my facebook after a realisation that I don't want to be this person who revolves my life around others's lives and there's more out there than just that. I've had a lot of people who have treated me really badly in the past, and I've let them. I'm over that cycle and it has to stop. It's time for it to stop. It's not okay anymore. It's not even around the fact I let it happen, it's about not reacting, not being angry at the people and thinking they understand what they're doing, because to be honest, they are sleepwalking. They are sleepwalking through life, sitting around on facebook sharing political views, sharing things that make them feel better about themselves, because THAT is what we have come to. No longer is communication valid, UNLESS it's on a facebook medium, THEN IT"S REAL> I want out of that mindset and away from people who think like that. I want to get away from the technology/media world that forces us to stop thinking for ourselves. Another thing I want to change is the people around me, because I am finding it hard that I want to express my spiritual experiences, but who with? The majority of people I know are closed off or afraid of any development spiritually, and would rather stay in a fearful world. Why? It's easy I guess, well fuck that! I have communication with spirits often, I connect with my higher power often, I connect with my future through visions and astral projection and I have spirits communicate with me for others and I can feel their presence, hear what they want to say, I can vision what they look like, I can hear thoughts and feel energies and KNOW what others are feeling often. This is how you read thoughts, thoughts are just energy, easily felt and interpreted, through colour, feeling, emotion, it is more descriptive than your exterior shell. I am not batshit crazy, I am real. I have allowed this into my life, because I was once fearful of dying, now I'm no longer afraid, and when death occurs, I no longer hold onto it for 12 years like I have done previously. I feel that I have to be around those who are AWAKE and who are not sleepwalking. If they are, I can't connect, energetically or friendship wise AT ALL. It is very important to keep those who are positive around you, because THEY help frame who you are as a person. If you keep negativity around, it will ALWAYS trump positivity. My aim in life is to make others realise their divine reason to be here and help them deal with issues that have plagued them as I had experienced in this lifetime and others. I need to learn confrontation on a deeper level, that is through energy, but it can only be for those who CHOOSE change and not those who CHOOSE to stay in a deep dark hole. I am feminine in this lifetime for this reason, for the reason that I am to birth to two spiritual divine children, I am to be the strength behind one of the most important forces on this earth (my partner). We have many paths in our life that we can choose to take, we either choose to live in the deep dark shadows or we can choose the light and take chances, make choices, love our life and live with intuition, it is all up to us in the end. Others can try to keep you back, keep you thinking that this is all you can have, but think for yourself, be yourself, love yourself, help yourself. Now what do you choose? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jnrvBHDZjzE&feature=relmfu