Pregnancy is tiring :)

I am finding it hard. I am tired all the time. I have never ever been one to have naps, but the past week I nap every afternoon, not a bad thing considering what's going on with my body, but I just can't handle stress at the moment and it does cause me to feel quite depressed. I am trying so hard to be positive but it is really hard. I find myself listening to sad music and not knowing how to feel. I don't feel real. It's actually really interesting this whole feeling because I feel really out of it at the moment energy wise, and I'd love to wind down, but really my wind down these days has to be some chocolate and a cuddle. But I also know that it is just apart of cutting certain things out of my life. I am just tired. I am tired of being used. I am tired of being lied to. I am tired of feeling like no matter what I do or act I am still walked over. I try so hard to please people, to give, to be happy and all I get back is selfish behaviour and acts. I am tired of this. I TRY SO HARD TO PUT POSITIVITY OUT THERE. Its so hard because it could be that i am manifesting adelaide to be like that so when i go back i just get treated like this, and because I can't wait to move to melbourne i am creating it, or is it just going to happen there anyway? because sometimes it feels like that. Kane is doing so well in Melbourne, even when he's down...he;s just around the right people I guess. I am jealous. I WANT TO MOVE OVER NOW! but i have to spend the next month trying to organise other peoples lives because they can't do it themselves. i have no pity for them, they've done it to themselves.