Lesson #4 - Anxiety is not worth it

Anxiety. My #1 enemy!

I have lived through some scary anxiety attacks.
From waking up in my sleep and screaming the house down, to a simple attack whilst at work, every 5 seconds of the day.

I learnt to control my attacks by breathing myself through them.
Telling myself that life is worth it.
Knowing that everything I am freaking out about is silly and just a product of my unhealthy ego.
You too can control your anxiety.

My anxiety came when I was stressed and stress was always something I found hard to counteract.
I have made goals this year, to combat my anxiety, get out and meet new people.

You should too.
It's good for you :)

Poem that goes with this story:

Anxious.

I'm shaking again.
Paranoid at why people are staring.
Why am I so intriguing?
I wish they'd stop judging me.
I want to scream at them to stop.
I get caught up in the masses of people around.
They are all following me.
Enough is enough.
I stop and look around.
I see noone.
Was it all in my head?
Was anyone actually there?
Why was I so paranoid?
I find it hard to breathe.
I run home.
I get to my front door and fumble for the keys.
I open the door, run inside and slam it shut.
I fall down on the floor.
Hug my knees.
My face is smothered in tears.

I find it easier to breathe.

I feel safe in these four walls.