My Biggest Fear

The tears don't dry quickly,
they run for as long as the grief takes over.
When will i no longer feel the sadness,
or the fear.

Another death, another time when I feel hopeless,
unable to control what happens when we die.
This is what sickens me,
terrorises my mind, my sanity.

I need someone to tell me it's allright,
that everything will be okay.
To say, when we die we will still feel, still be,
however this cannot be and I fall.

Depression, anxiety, physical sickness,
all symptoms I feel when those thoughts arrive.
Everything I see contains death,
I visualise them in my over-imaginative mind.

I will never feel at ease when this comes to play,
it will always scare me to panic.
and only one day will I know what death will bring,
until then, I live every day as it is, with happiness and love.