Lost souls

I always thought you were the strong one. I came to you for advice and you helped me understand the world a little more each time we spoke. However a month ago you took your own life. You did not want to exist and did not want to be here on Earth anymore. I cannot believe that I was taking advice from someone who I thought was so strong and sure of life and themselves, yet you were so lost and did not want to be found. It hurts that I won't see you again. It hurts that I won't get to hear your voice, hear your laugh, or make fun of anything and everything again. It really hurts that it has been a month and I did not see your pain, I only saw mine. I know you're in a better place, I know that you were unhappy here on Earth. I know that I wouldn't want you to feel tormented, but that doesn't mean I don't want you back. Your smile resonates in my memories forever and I cannot forget you. You were only in my life for a short time, but that was long enough to touch me like a sister. You were classy, funny, silly, crazy, adventurous and comical. I love you as much as Bert Newton. RIP Bethy.