New things and all that jazz

So. I have a serious chemical imbalance happening at the moment.

I go from being all freaked out to being okay to being tired to being energetic. It's extremely confusing.

I've been trying to get answers from doctors for two weeks, but I think in the end the answer is within myself.

I need to acknowledge what the last 3 months have been for me.

-Troubles with certain crazy uni lecturer
-Anxiety and depression was on a high
-Started on medical drugs to try and sort my chemical imbalance out
-My dear friend killed herself -----and from there... downhill.

It is still hard for me to know that I will never see Bethany again. It's a really hard realisation to make my mind believe it is true.

One thing I am realising though is it's time for me to get better, for me to get healthier, body mind and soul and understand that I am in control of myself.

My dear friend Orhan told me a few home truths today and these fall in the category of, get ya shit together, YOU CAN DO IT!

I can't keep wallowing, I have to get my ass into gear, get a nutrition plan, start a workout and stop letting myself comfort eat myself into being even more unhealthy.

Life is too short not to grab at and run with it!

Love to all.