Mental illness? is it really an illness? or are people who are experiencing this "disease", which I use loosely as a society term, are actually experiencing a different way of life, or a different way to branch out on the consciousness grid. Anyone who knows what it is like to realise their spirituality and begins the journey to find their true self and improve their life wellbeing, health and looking deep into their soul will know, that it is a long and hard journey. It can cause extreme pain at times, mental, physical and emotional pain.
More and more people these days, "2010" are experiencing depression. It is become more of a phenomenon on a widespread global scale. There is no pattern. There is however, many people who I know just in my day to day life who are realising more about themselves and branching out on finding their "true selves" and able to live their individuality with more freedom than they felt. This is not only just in my age group either, but across a whole scale if age groups. At some point in our life, some of us have been diagnosed with a disorder of the mental illness kind, be it manic depression, a clinical depression, borderline personality disorder or even schizophrenia. Honestly at some point of my height in depression and especially when my body and mind are extremely chemically imbalanced, I will experience symptoms to all of these disorders, making it hard to understand how I can be keyed down to one by a medical handbook, the DSM model.
On that note, who says that these don't overlap, they are just one disorder and the fact that it is more than possible for these disorders to co-morbidly exist and therefore it is just that the one illness has different effects due to neurological and genetic differences.
Kane told me today about a video that he watched that was about a girl with schizophrenia. This girl felt herself starting to watch an ant, becoming more and more intrigued and intensely "insane" as she HAD to watch this ant. The girl then felt like she was getting crazier and crazier and to interpret it into my version of events, most experts would call that 'schizophrenia, the disorder'. One who has been experiencing the different side of mental illness and spirituality as myself would interpret this as this girl was in fact experiencing a shift of the plane of consciousness she was on and even a change in dimension could be possible. The girl experienced herself 'become' the ant, she then could see herself as the ant looking upon her previous human body in her 'episode' and saw herself go 'crazy' and 'nuts' at people around her. Honestly, interpret this in a totally different way to a medical doctor, that the girl actually experienced the changing of the souls into the different bodies, be it human or ant, and the ant could not understand/cope with the change as it is just an ant and does not experience the same 'plane' as humans and freaked out in a sense.
Who says that mental illness is so wrong and bad? I guess if you look at the evolution of mental illness, women were seen as hysteric due to having 'periods' and such bad pains, which we know now as a menstrual period and is understood as nothing to do with mental illness. At some point people were thrown in a hole if known to have a mental illness, or taken away to a hospital and never to be seen again, most probably tested on. Lobotomies were performed, all kinds of horrible testing occurred to understand these different 'disorders'. I find myself more and more each time I feel depressed, get myself back up and then break down again, for whatever reason this is my journey and this is what is meant to happen for me to go 'hey I can be happy! and that's a way better feeling than when I'm depressed, screw feeling like this!'. Each time I feel anxious, i kick it quicker and quicker. Spirituality and meditation have helped this, and talking, chatting to those around me who have had similar problems, speaking out about it and knowing I'm not the only one. I wonder how some people really look at mental illness as a whole and how it's name in society is looked down at. I have a mental illness and I am not afraid to use it!
So, yes, some don't survive. Some become tormented and have to leave this planet. Their soul is too tormented, and feels like it needs to be somewhere else. That can happen. Not everyone is meant to survive mental illness, unfortunately. It is amazing to think that death can bring so many people together, friends, family and enemies can become closer and more understanding of each other due to a mutual friend's death. Sometimes the soul has done all that it can on earth and has learnt all it needed to learn.
Don't ever think that you are weak because you have a mental illness.
Unfortunately you are diagnosed incapable and become to believe it. This has happened recently to me. I believed it. I made myself sick. I was not medically sick, they could not find anything wrong. IN a way, it was stress and was in my head. My body was sick, mentally I felt okay, but my body was yelling out for some attention.
Back to feeling hopeless and believing you are incapable. THIS is not true. YOU can kick this to the curb. IF it comes back, it's just another addiction, like alcohol, cigarettes, sometimes people relapse, (coming from an ex alcoholic, yes this does happen, especially in the hardest of times) BUT you can see yourself through this, LEAN on those willing to help, IGNORE those not willing to help, and get yourself positive and healthy whichever way you can and that suits you.
YOU ARE STRONG. YOU ARE ABLE. YOU HAVE THE ABILITY TO OVERCOME ANYTHING.
LIVE YOUR DREAMS, NOONE ELSES.
AND ABOVE ALL....
....BE YOURSELF!
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